Alya Qistina

Monday, June 13, 2016

who are you?

Ameerul has this annoying habit of answering my phone call like, "Yes, who are you?". Like seriously?

Hahaha sounds so funny, but actually not. Once or twice is okay, but all the time, hmm it gets pretty irritating too especially if I'm not in the right mood. #moodswing

But sometimes I play along with his jokes, so one time I said to him, "This is your future wife speaking".

Then he replied, "Emm, you mean my first wife?"

Me, "Whoa, you think that's funny?"

Him, "Ala, chill la. Hahahaha"

He always thinks he's funny, which in fact I'm funnier.

So I made the same jokes on him. When he answered my phone call, I asked him "Yes, who is this speaking?"

Then he replied, "This is Ameerul Ashraf, the guy who is so in love with you".


But I played it cool. So I said, "Yeah I know that, tell me something that I don't know.

Him, "I love you even though you are fat".

Me, "Omagod fat boy, get yourself a mirror".

You see, I'll never win. Which I really don't like this.

Haha okay, it has been 6 years now with this guy. And our relationship isn't that kind of sweet, lovey-dovey one anymore (I mean not all the time). We are turning into this playful pairs who tease each other with hurtful words, and if you hurt, you lose. Then we would coax each other but the cycle repeats again. We become the laugh stocks of each other. If I did something embarrassing, he would go all month teasing me over that. If he said some wrong facts, of course I would do the same.

We spent couple of hours on the phone call the other day just talking about this relationship that just turned 6 years of being together and pondering about we never thought of doing this this far. 6 years of just so many things we've spent together. Each ups and downs. Each of everything.

But we still go "Yes, who is this speaking?"


Friday, June 10, 2016

Dear Past Me

Dear Past Me,

I've received your letter 5 years ago. Thanks for the effort to write and for the high dreams you had on me hahaha. Don't be surprised about what you are going to read now.

To be honest, the current me isn't that much differ to the past me. Just that, I'm getting better than you (a good thing right?). I'm not a pharmacist yet, but I'm turning into one. I'm doing my degree in Clinical Pharmacy in Egypt now. I know! You'd never had a slightest thought of me going far to Egypt. Never ever in your plan. But this is how life rolls. Allah has sent me here, with reasons. And Alhamdulillah for that. I'm happy here.

I've spent almost 4 years here, I'm truly blessed. I've learnt so many things, I get to know the real meaning of life. I feel closer to what we should do in life. My aim was only to become a pharmacist. But it gets so different now, I think being a good Muslim is all that matters the most. Speaking of studies, I think I am just you. Who still stays up late for the last minute revision, I am still the same me hahaha but still having the same aim to become what I've really liked; pharmacist.

(Is it possible for someone to become this loyal? Damn, I must be so weird hahaha).

Family is still the same. I got a sister in law now who is expecting for her first. I'm so excited! Dad is the most excited one, of course. Because he's getting old (taking antihypercholesterolemia now zzz I lectured him about this already don't worry) that he can't really wait to have his first grandchild. He already has his favourite names to give to our first newborn. He would selfies with any of our cousin's children and sends the pictures to our Whatsapp group just to say that "our time is next" hahaha. So exciting. Mum is mum, never change, she's pretty cool about this.

And as me, I'm not married yet. If the plan goes well, it'll be at the end of this year, if Allah wills. I'm gonna blog about this real soon. So maybe in the next letter, you are going to read more about my marriage life hahaha. Yes, with Ameerul (who else?). Told ya, I'm one loyal freak! Ameerul is still nice. He puts everyone ahead before him, as always. You know, it would have be a thick book if I'd got to write all of nice things he's done to me. I am not bragging but he's really one nice creature that Allah has made for me, so complementary and it fits so well like a puzzle hahaha. (That's why he says I'm good at words, I'm one sweet talker you see).

Damia and Adam are still my closest babies. Since I'm in Egypt now, I will only get the chance to meet them once per year. But they grow up so fast now, Damia has a cellphone already. She Whatsapps me all the time with her pictures, songs and so on hahaha.

Let me tell you about Dolls. They are growing up so so well. Many things happen in this 5 years. So many newborns, so many Dolls Jr. Everyone got married and all. And Mc Ah's baby had an operation for her congenital heart problem, it's really sad. But Baby Zara Humaira grows up so well now, she's really strong. And as for my diploma coursemate, we are still close. Still the same as the old us. I'm really happy about this friendship. And I've made a new circle now with my Egypt sisters, they are younger than me but that's really okay cause I feel younger hahaha.

Oh, shopping! I miss to shop. I haven't really shop for the longest time! Wow, can't believe myself. Cause I have no income right now hahaha I'm going back to become a student, so I only get my monthly allowance from my dad. What a sad thing zzzz. Don't bother to buy shoes anymore cause I couldn't find any of my size here, everything is so large, I'm miserable. Plus, collecting shoes now is a bad idea, cause Egypt gets so dusty and I love my shoes, so that's it. Handbag? Nayy. I'm a student now. Backpack is fine for me. Clothes? Nayy. Cairo is far. And everything gets expensive due to Egypt's currency. I used to collect MNG shirts and Charles & Keith handbags before. But any of international brands here are double charged to what they be in Malaysia due to the currency. I remember I really want this Charles & Keith handbag but it costed 600LE, nahh forget it I felt like giving away 6 pieces of 100LE notes, compared to what they'd be in Malaysia (just giving away 2 or 3 pieces of RM100 notes haha), so never mind hahaha. But H&M is tolerable.

So, I only shop in Malaysia when I get back there during summer break.

Well, I may progress slowly, it's fine as long as I put an effort to make myself better. Well, of course life isn't always be easy. But I'm thankful I got everyone around me through my every moments. I'm one happy girl woman.

Thanks to those who stay. I sound like an old lady now and I hate it. I'm still young! *applying anti-aging cream*


Not mine, obviously haha. Just me in 2016.

The Future You.

Thursday, June 9, 2016

ramadan kareem 2016

As I grow older (plus as I stay longer in Egypt) I realize just how exciting Ramadan is compared to Syawal. I used to be so worried of being not able to drink for 13 hours straight due to my UTI. But the childish me knew nothing. I've reminded myself every year that how amazing Ramadan is when Allah doubles your rewards and so many great things we would receive throughout this holy month that we wish it would be Ramadan the whole year.

I've got to spend my whole Ramadan here in Egypt this year. And Syawal too! Cause Ramadan gets earlier by year, now it clashes with my final exams and summer time too, so yeah. Basically it's 16 hours of fasting with the outside temperature of 40+ degree Celsius. Just wow hahaha. But Allah understands what we've gone through, He knows how we feel. I believe He has His special way to reward us on this.

Ramadan here is pretty exciting. People here celebrate it tremendously compared to Eid. They start to decorate their houses with fanous. The roads are just lighten up with decorations. A few days prior to Ramadan, you've got to see people would give away the foods/raw materials to those who need it. Numerous open invitation to free break fast. People/strangers happily wish you a good Ramadan. Isn't that exciting? The exciting part is the discount you'd get in supermarket hahaha most items are sold on low prices.

My first day of Ramadan went so well. We gathered at my house and prepared for suhoor and break fast together. We would stay up till fajr, so that no one would miss her suhoor (Fajr is at 3 am). Break fast is the exciting part, we cook so many things cause we want to eat so many things hahaha. Our first day of Ramadan just filled with silly conversations pretending we were in Malaysia. I wished we could go to bazaar to buy my fav murtabak. Shela wished she could go to Kedai 1Malaysia near to her house to buy her jajan. Mannn, can't believe I wouldn't be able to go to any bazaar in Malaysia this year.

This is my very first time to spend my whole Ramadan away from home. But it still fells like home anyway when you're surrounded by good companions. That always reminds you to be better,

One of our Ramadan goals is to khatam the al-Quran together. So we've decided to take part of reciting the divided juzuk for each of us.

My personal Ramadan goals are just want to khatam the al-Quran, perform terawikh every night (usually only at home so far) and just do many little things that Allah loves His servant to do. In shaa Allah.

Ramadan Kareem my brothers and sisters.

Saturday, January 9, 2016


What inspire you to success in your career/field?

For me, none. I have no specific goals in life. I just want to achieve my 10-years ambition, which is to be a pharmacist (yes, that long. Been wanting to be a pharmacist since I was 16). And now, I wish to build a hospital, or err is it too high? Hahaha.

How I developed my interest in this. I once saw a flyer from UiTM's Faculty of Pharmacy on the notice board at my school.The flyer neatly described the requirement the faculty needed for those who were interested to study a degree in pharmacy. I didn't know how it got to attach there. But basically I stole it from the notice board and pasted it on my study desk. And made it an inspiration for me to be one.

Because for 16-year-old me, being pharmacist might be cool. You can still dressed up as you like (I imagined myself in a kebaya wearing high heels with make up brilliantly describing the uses of medicines to people - just a plain stupid me, right hahaha) and still able to get good salary from that. Basically two things that I liked; being pretty and money of my own haha. And just because I read in the newspaper that our country really needed pharmacists supply at that time (2006), so I thought, "Oh, it's probably me you're looking for, lovely country!"

(It has changed now. My intention spreads diverted to educate my people about health and drugs. Literally, maybe. Hahaha).

I remember the conversation I had with my dad in the car when he sent me off to my school. He had this huge ambition of sending me to a medical school but I refused. I said, "What about pharmacy?" and that left my dad in silence. But he finally trusted my interest.

His second attempt to enroll me into a med school was when I filled a form to continue a degree in Egypt. He said, "Oh, Pharmacy will take 5 years? Medicine 6 years? Go for medicine la, only 1 year difference". But I said, "But I've liked Pharmacy". *insert puppy eyes*.

I mean, I didn't expect myself to study so hard in university. Medicine is hard. It is so gonna need too many of studies, especially for a lazy me! Hahaha. That's why if any of my high school friends who managed to pursue a medicine course just got a "Wow" from me haha.

But unfortunately, Pharmacy is nothing less like that. So many things to study. Just so many things to study!!

But it gets so different when you like what you do. I'm still having the same interest towards it as same as 10 years back. (You know I'm just so loyal like that *blows nail*)

So, basically nothing has actually inspired me to progress in my chosen field. It's just my interest. My willing to study. My attraction to what I'm gonna do in the future. Of course, if you ask me, I wish to make my parents happy with what I'm going to achieve, huge or small.

If you ask my colleagues (diploma or degree), they will agree that I don't study that hard. I don't revise books/notes that much. Which I actually tried to do, but I couldn't - I lost my focus. My study pattern is definitely the famous last-minute study *high five* I know you do too! Haha.

But still feel like having a responsibility as a student or as a knowledge seeker, I will pay 101% attention to my lecturers in the classes. No phones, no chatting. My preferable seat is always at the front row. I'd even prefer to sit just in front of the lecturer so he/she can talk to my face directly. I will ask as much questions to them (brilliant to stupid ones. I realized sometimes my questions are stupid, but never mind hahaha).

And read from some outside source about your field. Eg: Current news/issues.

I do all these because I know I won't study later at home haha. At least, I have some efforts, no?

And definitely, a night before the exams, I will be studying like a crazy mental patient, reading through my books as if I could penetrate them. Keep memorizing and memorizing and memorizing. Sleep only 1 hour. Sigh. (I'd always wanna change, but I can't)

But I'm glad to know that I'm progressed from 10 years back. When I look at how much I struggled for this, I literally can cry. Just too bitter. And too sweet. Mixed feelings.

So this post actually comes out just because I am in the exam mode now. I'm done with 2 papers, still have 5 more than. Sigh.

Just a picture of me getting an award for my academic achievement months ago. *cringes* 

Monday, January 4, 2016

inside out

Just my second animated movie for 2016. Or the second for the rest of my life hahaha.

Well, how should I explain this. After I watch Home, I kinda have a trust on these sort of movies. So I went to see my housemate who is the source of all movies (hehehe) to get a new supply of good movie.

Unbelievably, I asked, "You have anything like Home?"

They laughed. Home was sooooo fun. I wanna have the same vibes again as when I watched Home.

She has a lot of animated movie. But she suggested Inside Out (2015).

Well, we watched it happily despite of the fact that we had an exam 2 days after that.

It was fun. One minute, I could laughed crazily over cute characters and the next minute I'd felt rather sad watching the family got apart. I'm not gonna narrate the whole story to you guys because I believe you guys have actually watched this. I am always far left behind in this category hahaha.

So now, what movie is next?

Saturday, January 2, 2016

new house

I wrote before about how my house owner 'kicked us out' from my current rental house. So, we needed to look for a new house to live in. Like homeless people, we went around the whole neighborhood searching for any potential houses. We asked local people around. Using as many connections as we had. Exhausted.

We went for so many potential houses. Just to find that they weren't really as potential as we thought. Really, they lacked so many things compared to our old house. Too far. Too dark. Unfamiliar neighborhood. Too expensive.


We had minor headache episodes for a month just thinking about this hahaha.

So, one day, my classmate called me. He said, his house owner was looking for female tenants. I said, we're going to have a look at the house first. My first impression was, "Hmm this is not that bad, but my old house is far way better".

But we really had no choice! The dateline was so near. So, we desperately said, "Okay, we are taking this house. Deposit is paid next week".

Just. Like. That.

Thank god that this new house owner is kind of generous (so far haha), she painted our house neatly to welcome us. So it seems like a new house now. She seems so nice and friendly. And since she lives just upstairs to our house (still on the same building), so she can always come to pay a visit to our house. Things I often hear so far is "Alhamdulillah, helwah giddan. Kuwaisy". (Alhamdulillah, so nice. Good).

Because female tenants take care of the house nicely, of course. Hahaha.

Well, actually it happens that my new house is just behind to my old house. It's really close. So I still live at the same neighborhood. Still living in the familiar surrounding, which is so much comfortable for me.

So, I'm now updating from my new house.

Friday, January 1, 2016


Happy new year!

The feeling is as same as I celebrated Awal Muharram few months ago. Welcoming new year is fun. You'd filled with hope and trust towards yourself. You believe you could do better next time. You suddenly have dont-know-where-it-comes-from spirit that tells you to be brave and strong in the future ahead.

I feel that.

I don't have specific new year resolutions or whatever. But I just want to be fat.

To be fat for me is equals to being healthy. I wanna fix my BMI which I've actually tried for years but nothing has came out.

(And as a start, I just finished my heavy breakfast with the last-night's pizzas and KFCs leftover -reallyyyyyyyy healthy hahahaha)

And nothing more that I wish for 2016. I'm just gonna go with the flow and rock every moments of the journey. (I don't buy New Year New Me kind of thing, sorry hahaha)

Well, since we are in the exam season now, plus it is winter, so we don't really spend that much of time outside. I'd rather be at home, wrapping myself with my qissy-smelled blanket, switch the heater on the highest heat flow. Our (housemates) kind of new year celebration was just enjoying some good seafood pizzas and called KFC for delivery and watching some movies.

And also it's rare for me to watch animated movies hahaha. You name it, Despicable Me? No. Frozen? No. Baymax? No. No. No. Stop asking.

My actual kind of movie is always about some working, sophisticated woman who knows how to dress up, have a boyfriend who is finally turns out to be a loser or rich man who suddenly becomes an asshole to his woman and all that these women do is to step up and fight. Or something thrilling and family mode movie.

Much less like The Devil Wears Prada, Bride Wars, We Are The Millers, Maze Runner etc. Animated movie? You kidding?

But last night I did. And I'd never knew it's actually fun. Really fun. This movie called Home.

It's really fun actually. How this alien tries to invade earth and finally befriends with human and they help each other to complete their missions.

I fell in love! Guess it's a good start for 2016?

You mean, I'm slowly turning into a kid?