crazy month

I'm so tempted to open this site and blog about what's going on in my life (well, nothing's actually going on here hahaha), but I've been so so so busy that I didn't have much time to even switch on my laptop.

My final exam has started! Passed 2 papers and still struggling for the rest 5 papers. 7 papers is totally normal okay.

So this means my sleepless nights have begun. My blood level should be contented with caffeine. Books and notes are everywhere to be found; bed, study desk, coffee table and even on laundry rack.

And this struggle has some sweet ending, perhaps, because I'm going back to my country just a few day after the last paper ends. Isn't that exciting to start Ramadhan at home?

Hahaha so happy to escape summer here.

wedding

Been getting a lot of wedding invitations thru Facebook - because no one wants to waste a time to post me a card via international delivery that probably takes 1 month to arrive and obviously I can't attend.

I felt a glimpse of excitement to receive such invitations and I usually went like, "Wow, she's getting married" or "Young, successful and going to get married - how interesting" or "Already?"

Or nowadays that I've been getting so so much invitations that apparently I won't be able to attend, I'll go like, "Awhh whose wedding this time?" or "Whose Raikan Cinta is this?" whilst tapping my phone to open her Facebook invitation page from the notification box.

Confession: I'd always wanted to get married early - at 25. Simply because it's a sunnah. 25 is such a perfect age to get married because usually that's when you're just starting with a stable career, you can afford to buy your own assets, you're technically mature enough to manage a household and taking care of babies.

Also you can befriend with your own children when they get older because the age gap isn't that huge. I wanna be my children's bestfriend - even though they don't want to.

I wanna see how they progress. I wanna be there on their graduation days. I wanna be there inside their labour rooms. #clingyfuturemomalert

Am I right? Okay, maybe my talks are cheap. Hahaha.

So being 25 years old now, any signs of getting married is really nowhere to be seen. Not even a slightest hahaha.

No pressure of course.

Because I need to complete my studies first. Marriage is not a race okay.

I know my life is progressing a little slower than the others. But truth be told, that doesn't give me a pressure. As long as you enjoy doing your own things and stick to your goals. I actually have so many dreams to achieve - though everything seems to move so slow for me.

"It's okay if you'd get it done later than others. This is not a race. All that matters is you and you ambition." - Dad, 3 years ago.

Well, we can just plan, no matter how great our plans are, it's only Allah who has the power of deciding everything.

So now, I'm just focusing on the wedding... of my big brother. Hahaha but it's really really nice to see their preparations. From wedding invitation card, door gifts and all.

Okay now. I'm going to go back to books.

Study week now. Nerd alert mode on.

another exam

So, now I've done with numerous exams. A few mid term papers left before starting my real final exams. Tomorrow will be my Community Pharmacy practical exam - which now I'm trying to memorize all those drugs.

My Pharmacology practical the other day was just okay. My frog died after a tonic convulsion from Strychnine. And for the second drug, my mouse went super hyperactive I needed to put it inside a box that my Egyptian friend gave to me.

My little mouse jumped really high and he (or she? I didn't care) almost bit my fingers! Rude, very rude. I was so surprised that he went too harsh that I threw him away to my neighbor friend who sat in front of me - she didn't notice, if not she would screamed I bet.

Mice and frogs are everywhere on the floor! I really felt like growing more and more hairs on my entire legs!

So I assumed that my second unknown drug was Caffeine. Cause my mouse went really active (CNS stimulation) even though he didn't show any signs/symptoms like we ever learnt in class. Spoiled la you little mouse, always like that. In exams, nothing goes right. Hahaha.

It might be Caffeine. Because I injected it to a frog before - he had mixed convulsion and he couldn't walk properly- hanging of legs.

As for tomorrow, another subjects, but still related to drugs. We are going to get few clinical problems and suggest the line of treatments for each disease. Of course, cannot simply give any drugs. We must know how the drugs work, side effects, drug-drug interaction and so and so.

Flatlay - to make it more boring. Hahaha

long hair and summer

I've always wanted to keep my hair long cause I think I'm adorable like that haha though no one could really see it. My hair never got any shorter than my shoulder throughout my life except twice or thrice that I might became unconsciously insane to cut it that short at that time or when the hairdresser just cut it wrong. Other than that, I'd reallyyy love to keep it long.

But the downside of having such long hair is that it gets to be pretty annoying to manage. Hair fall is another problem. Especially during summer. Cause it's so hot in here that I will switch my fan on to the maximum speed. When the strong wind from the fan strikes your hair really harsh, it will fly to your face like a tornado. Imagine if you're wearing a facial mask at that crucial time! It's also distracting so much when you try to study and memorizing such long medical terms and another 'tornado' strikes. 

I tied my hair in a bun, not comfortable. I covered my hair with towel for a while, I was sweating - of course, not comfortable.

I remember last summer I asked my friends to cut my hair down. Cause impatient me was just getting angry at my own hair!

But Alhamdulillah, this long hair has no issue with wearing hijab outside. I'm comfortable with that..

Plus summer here is no joke. Where the high temperatures will easily soar over 40 °C - including Zagazig. Summer is definitely not my favourite season. Simply because it's so much hotter than the rest. Cause impatient me just can't bear with it. (I need to learn to be patient, actually).

So, what I usually do is try to avoid being outside as much as I can. And the good thing is that we don't have any lectures during summer anymore because the final exams are starting. So we just have to go to the campus for exams, only. And this year, Ramadhan comes just right in summer, reallyyyy need to be more patient, okay? Hahaha.

And also, what I usually do in summer are taking shower more often, drink gallons of plain water, keep the fan to function at its highest speed, wear veryyyy thin clothes and moisturizer suddenly becomes my bff.

I don't know what this summer will bring. I'm just so excited to go back to Malaysia right after my final exams finish!

Which also may be as hot as here hahaha. But it is a home after all.

biggest fear

I'm taking 5-minute break from studying for Pharmacology practical exam tomorrow. Which I'm quite nervous about. Since this takes about 25 marks for grading the whole subject.

So for tomorrow I need to inject unknown drugs to frog/mouse and waiting for their reactions to determine my unknown drugs. I'm never afraid of frogs, we're kind of bff like that. Though with their wet skin and all, at least they don't bite!

But as for mice, euw! Hahaha euw! I can't stand those snouty noses with projecting hairs some more. And the naughty tails of them waving nonchalantly as if saying they've got all the power in the world. Isn't that annoying? Hahaha. The fact of just looking at them moving in the locked cage is already annoying.

(Especially when you inject Pilocarpine to this mouse, it will secrete so much saliva and tears until its hair is going to get wet by that, that's really... em, so nauseous. Sorry, mouse. I am a mean human being).

Mice are my biggest fear ever!

I feel like peeing seeing they move towards me in the lab.

One thing that I find myself calm a little bit is that the mice here aren't that big. They are just petite and manageable. Not as big as the ones you see outside.

I was freaked out to know we needed to play with mice at first. Then I tried to touch them - slowly, injected them quickly that finally I found myself calm and starting to enjoy doing things like that every week in the lab.

I finally overcome my fear to this little species! ... at least 50%.

Mice aren't really my biggest fear after all.

So, okay. For now, I'm going to go back to my book. See you tomorrow dear frogs/mice whatever.

And wish me luck people!

1st May

It's 1st May guys! A small festive to all labors in the world. A day that you guys are waiting for. I feel you guys, I've been in that place. And it has been so so long since I write under a label of 'Working Girl'.

I once worked as a pharmacy assistant for 1 year in a private hospital before I continue with a degree now. It was such a good one year, really.

Alhamdulillah, that my ex colleagues and I are still can get along well until now. It's really good that I was able to get some experience and getting to know more people/connection at the same time.

Being a working lady, compared to study, I'd personally love my student life more, except that the fact of not having your own money is terrible, you still have to be dependent to your family. My dad to be specific hahaha.

Anyhow, it was really good to just waking up to go to work, no assignments, no exams, no need to study hard, and countdown to the pay day.

Actually, being a pharmacy assistant has its own challenges, I admit, it wasn't that easy. It was a headache sometimes.

Well, I'm taking a break from any hospitals for now. Doing a degree and definitely going to crash hospitals real soon. But with a different position, different responsibility, different job description - definitely different challenges.

That's life after all.

And in the future, I'd actually have a lot more dreams to achieve. So many plans, so many things that I really want to do.

One step at a time. Be patient, it won't hurt.

p/s: I'd choose Hospital Pharmacy for now. Never thought of getting into Community Pharmacy or any other fields, but we'll see what the future brings.

I used to serve you drugs and I'll come again to you on this!

Happy Labour Day!